When you are consciously opening up to the universe and having goals like raising your awareness, healing the self and others etc etc you'll get challenges in your life as well. Things will come up and you'll have chances to use what you've learned. Should keep your harmony and vibrational level so you won't fall into a bad cycle where you start feeling pessimistic all the time, fantasize bad possibilities and attract them along the way.

This is right now exactly what's happening with me. First started having discussions about certaing things with Arjan that I kept postponing to talk about, then lost my kitten (still feeling sad) and finally they broke in to our shop. Thought it was over but apparently not

This morning found an e-mail from a cousin of my father who also don't have contact with him (so i thought) and I replied to his mail and gave him my current e-mail address. Now I just received a reply where to CCed to my father and his daughters. Daughters are fine but now thanx to him my father knows my website, e-mail address and business number. Great. after 4 years i'm gonna have to deal with him again but that's how it works. I should have dealt with him long time ago and now I'm getting another chance. I better calm down and get ready for a phone call or e-mail from him :)

After the MH initiation I was expecting to get some clearing but this is becoming one helluva clearing!

We've been painting all day to prepare my healing room. Made a brave choice and painted the whole room to violet! heheh Kept chanting and saying affirmations while painting to charge and cleanse the room. It already feels so peaceful inside. The color helps as well. Tomorrow will paint the windows and frames to golden! :)

Update: He already sent an e-mail full of fake emotions and emotional blackmail. Can't believe we have the same genes sometimes! I'll wait until I'm calm and ready for it and will write him an e-mail and explain -like he doesn't know- why we shouldn't have contact after all this time and why didn't have it either. Unbelievable. Of course the next step will be him getting angry but I couldn't care less! I'm just too old and too far to be patronized by him. Soon he'll understand that as well. I seriously started thinking maybe this is a karmic thing and I have something to learn from him or just didn't dealt with something I should have in my past life??? We'll see...