After all the sad events and ranting I thought I could write an e-mail and let you guys know that I'm OK. Thank you for all the healing energies and thoughts you've sent. They've been all felt and appreciated a lot. I'm still as busy but feeling much better. Arjan is much more helpful than before and he finished the brochures in two days. I was trying to make them and find a cheap printer for weeks! He also installed the security system tonight so we can move the stuff in tomorrow. I can't believe we are about to open!! So exciting. Even my cats were so helpful last few days. They've been showing attention to me and been around me all the time :)

There's one more thing I want to write about actually. Last night Ersin said that she wasn't feeling well and asked me to send her some healing. I told her that I was busy but would send before going to bed and I did around 12:30. Like the last time I did with her house cleansing I decided to use Violet Flame for healing. Didn't call her and ask because of the lateness of the hour  and even forgot about it this morning until she came to me and tell me about a dream she had. Apparently around 12:30 last night she had a dream where she was standing in front of a dwell (or summat like that) and it was full of Violet Flame. She said that it felt so powerful and good. She was thinking that we could do so much good with it and she woke up immediatly feeling much better. She even wrote the dream down not to forget...Apparently she had the dream when I sent her the healing. Another + point for VF from me :) Will keep experimenting and ask my guides to learn more about it.

When you are consciously opening up to the universe and having goals like raising your awareness, healing the self and others etc etc you'll get challenges in your life as well. Things will come up and you'll have chances to use what you've learned. Should keep your harmony and vibrational level so you won't fall into a bad cycle where you start feeling pessimistic all the time, fantasize bad possibilities and attract them along the way.

This is right now exactly what's happening with me. First started having discussions about certaing things with Arjan that I kept postponing to talk about, then lost my kitten (still feeling sad) and finally they broke in to our shop. Thought it was over but apparently not

This morning found an e-mail from a cousin of my father who also don't have contact with him (so i thought) and I replied to his mail and gave him my current e-mail address. Now I just received a reply where to CCed to my father and his daughters. Daughters are fine but now thanx to him my father knows my website, e-mail address and business number. Great. after 4 years i'm gonna have to deal with him again but that's how it works. I should have dealt with him long time ago and now I'm getting another chance. I better calm down and get ready for a phone call or e-mail from him :)

After the MH initiation I was expecting to get some clearing but this is becoming one helluva clearing!

We've been painting all day to prepare my healing room. Made a brave choice and painted the whole room to violet! heheh Kept chanting and saying affirmations while painting to charge and cleanse the room. It already feels so peaceful inside. The color helps as well. Tomorrow will paint the windows and frames to golden! :)

Update: He already sent an e-mail full of fake emotions and emotional blackmail. Can't believe we have the same genes sometimes! I'll wait until I'm calm and ready for it and will write him an e-mail and explain -like he doesn't know- why we shouldn't have contact after all this time and why didn't have it either. Unbelievable. Of course the next step will be him getting angry but I couldn't care less! I'm just too old and too far to be patronized by him. Soon he'll understand that as well. I seriously started thinking maybe this is a karmic thing and I have something to learn from him or just didn't dealt with something I should have in my past life??? We'll see...

Guys I don't know where to start. Since yesterday I'm not feeling very good and like it wasn't enough tonight something else happened: somebody broke into our shop!

Landlord called around 9:00 and told us that there's a broken glass everywhere in the shop and there was nothing when I left so Arjan took me to the shop and apparently there was a weak point at the door and when you use force you can actually open it. We didn't put the stones yet or anything valuable since we are still waiting for insurance guys but all our displays and kitchen stuff is in and displays are all made of glass. Apparently some idiot broke into the shop under broad day light and when he saw there was nothing in he got upset and he hit his drink bottle to one of the displays. The strange thing is that his bottle is broken but our plain glass display is not! So the protection is still working. You know he could do a lot of damage to us.

Arjan will be sleeping there tonight and tomorrow we'll have the door fixed so we can lock it properly. He didn't want me to stay there in case the idiot who broke in comes back. In a way I'm glad this happened now and not when the jewelery is in. So we can fix that weak point. We already had an appointment with the security people for Tuesday anyway.

She died. Apparently Arjan came across to an animal ambulance on the way and by the time they checked she was gone. They think she died of shock after the fall. No idea what really happened though...We are both devastated. It hurts so much...

I just found my one of my kittens meowing with pain and can't seem to move an arm. Arjan took her to animal hospital. I don't know if she can't make it. Almost fainted before leaving. Please send healing. Anything you can do